God is trustworthy. I had forgotten that. Why? I'm not sure. But, over the past few months, I had lost my confidence in His faithfulness. I was, once again, trying to do everything on my own. I was praying, but didn’t believe it was doing any good.
In the Bible, the people of God were encouraged repeatedly to "remember" His faithfulness: Remember that I brought you out of Egypt (Deuteronomy 7:17–19); Remember the Lord, then fight for your families (Nehemiah 4:14b); Remember it was the Lord, not your own strength that got you where you are (Deuteronomy 8:17–18).
I've shared this "Remember" principle with my kids, even as I was going through my own bout of doubt hoping it would help me, too.
Finally, I was honest with God. I told Him my fears and confessed my shame in not trusting Him. I told Him I needed help to believe. I felt like the father in the Bible who desperately wanted to believe Jesus could help his son. "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!" Mark 9:24
With my honesty, two things happened:
- God began reminding me of amazing things from my past that had NOTHING to do with me. The only way to explain them: God was up to something. Even in my unbelief, He was helping me believe.
- My worries changed to prayers, then trust. For example, I would worry: "I hope this discussion goes well." Then pray: "God, please help me ask the right questions." Then, with a sigh of relief, He would help me trust: "I know you will help me. Thanks, Lord." (Philippians 4:6–7: “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything…present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”)
God is trustworthy. We want our kids to bring us their troubles so we can help them with the issue. Then they can go on their way carefree knowing they can trust us to help. That's a picture of what God desires of us to do as well.
As moms our worries can be mountainous. Run to Him with each concern as it enters your mind. Turn it into a prayer, take a deep breath, then know He is capable of taking care of it. Remember—He's done it a million times before. He can do it again.
I am in awe of Your faithfulness—not just in big things, but especially lately, in the small things. I pray that those who read this will be able to remember events from the past that can only be credited to You. Help the reminders give them courage to pray, take a deep breath, then trust You with the problems of today. Thank You for loving us not just a little, but lavishly. All the glory belongs to You. Amen.
Relying on Him,
Mom and Loving It! Ministries